“Divorce feels like heavy breathing…Divorce feels like choking / Barely breathe…Like you’ve been set on fire for your truth, then called a liar.”
Kanye West, now legally known as Ye, shared an original poem on his Instagram on Saturday, giving more insight into how he’s been coping since his divorce from Kim Kardashian.
As you may know, Ye has expressed unhappiness with the split since Kim – who filed for divorce from him last February – began dating her boyfriend, Pete Davdison, in late October.
Shortly after Kim and Pete were spotted together after their joint Saturday Night Live appeared that month, Ye publicly denied the divorce entirely, saying he had “never even seen” the legal documents during an interview in early November.
He then made a series of grand gestures in an effort to win Kim back – despite her newfound relationship with Pete – including begging her to “run right now” to him on stage at his concert in December.
And things have only gotten worse this year, with Ye repeatedly calling out Pete and Kim on a series of since-deleted Instagram posts. He notably took aim at his ex’s parenting style, slamming her for allowing their eldest daughter North, 8, to have an account on TikTok – which is run by Kim.
In fact, the subject of raising their four children – North, Saint, Chicago and Psalm – has been a huge source of contention throughout their relationship and since their split, with the two often arguing over their different parenting methods. .
In his only statement addressing the matter so far, Kim actually called out Ye for “constant attacks” last month after reporting her for allowing North on TikTok. “Kanye’s obsession with trying to control and manipulate our situation in such a negative and public way only causes more pain for everyone,” she wrote.
Ye continued to refer to Kim as his “wife” as recently as last month while sharing a series of private messages he received from her. In the apparent texts, the beauty mogul expressed fear for Pete’s safety and urged her ex to stop encouraging his fans to ‘yell’ at him in public – which came after he called the “Skete” actor, “trash” and an online “asshole”.
The rapper also shared a text he had received from Pete himself, in which the comic apparently made it clear that he was not going to come between Ye and his children.
Last week, a Los Angeles court declared Kim “legally single” following a long battle with Ye, who allegedly spent months refusing to sign documents granting her legal status. Hours later, the rapper released a disturbing music video for his song “Eazy,” which sees a cartoonish figure of Ye kidnapping, beheading and burial a cartoon version of Pete.
And in a new poem — or maybe song lyrics — shared days later, Ye reflected on the split for the first time since Kim’s new legal status was announced, giving fans a better look at how he’s coping. to separation.
In the piece, which is apparently titled DIVORCE, Ye compares her feelings during the split to “full-fledged Covid” and “walking on glass.”
“Divorce looks like full-fledged Covid / Divorce makes it look like your doctor knows nothing / Divorce looks like [you’re] walking on glass,” Ye writes.
He then compares the split to “going through a glass wall”, being “bullied in a classroom” and “getting beaten up in the mall”.
Ye continues, “Divorce feels like your hand has been burned on the stove / Divorce feels like your soul has been dragged over coals.”
And Ye then goes on to express her feelings about her and Kim’s kids, “Divorce makes it look like your kids have been ripped out of your control / Divorce makes it look like you’ve been shot down and the traffic is slow,” he wrote.
He continues, “Divorce feels like heavy breathing / Divorce feels like grandma never got over that cold / Divorce feels like choking / Barely breathing.”
“Divorce feels like you’re getting a spiritual beating every night / Divorce feels like you’ve been working overtime all week and not allowed to be away on weekends”, he adds.
Ye describes feeling “broken into a thousand pieces” and, in the next line, being “burned for your truth and then called a liar”, before describing feeling he “can’t breathe” as a result of the split.
“Divorce feels like you can’t sit or stand / Divorce feels like you can’t breathe / Divorce feels like you can’t stay or go,” wrote- he.
He adds, “Who are you to have an opinion on your own life / You’re not you anymore / You’re what’s left of you.”
The album’s predecessor, donda (released in August), gave significant insight into the dissolution of Ye and Kim’s marriage, so fans weren’t surprised to hear 2 will likely document Ye’s feelings since the split.
In the first song on 2entitled “SecurityYe apparently opened up about a spat he had with Kim in January over arrangements for their daughter Chicago’s fourth birthday. At the time, in a series of videos uploaded, Ye claimed that he hadn’t been invited to the birthday party and that he “had no right” to know where she was. He also apparently accused the Kardashian family of “taking dads out of homes purposely”.
A few days before the birthday party, Ye claims in an interview that security guards at Kim’s home denied her access to her children, alleging that “the new boyfriend” – aka Pete – was inside at the time.
A month after the birthday party, Ye released “Security,” in which he raps, “Pop home, I don’t get frisked / Put your safety at risk…I walk in the crib, no frisk / Bare butt in the kitchen cooking oatmeal / Tell mom, “Come kiss me” / Security gon’ need security for this.”
Ye continues to make more pointed jabs at his ex and Pete later in the song, rapping, “Never take the family picture out of the fridge / Never stand between a man and his kids.”